automutilation [day 5]
i failed, i couldn’t take it.
big meeting at work today, sat there shaking, fever higher than ever and i had to keep warm. my boss came in with a fresh cup of the steaming black and put it right in front of me whilst saying: “By not drinking coffee you are scaring away the customers!! you look awful (thanks) and the coffee shop has been wondering where their main customer has gone!! you’ll ruin us! now drink this coffee or go!!” (well not the same words, its translated but that was sort of what she said…)
so to save the world, i gave up the experiment and drank that cup. what pleasant feeling. it filled me with delight! the tease, that bitter sweet symphony on my tongue…